Sunday, July 26, 2009

i know.


No matter what lies you tell me i'll always be on guard because i know better. No what i tell you, no matter how deep you think i have fallen, Trust me...i know better. Ive heard it all before, and i know what you do when i'm not around, i'm telling you, i know better. I dunno how long its gonna take you to realize what you had. When are you gonna stop being a child and grow up, I'm not waiting forever. There will be that day that i move on, and you'll be left where you can't seem to get out of. Then maybe finally YOU'LL know better, and it will be too late and i'll be gone...FOREVER!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

ENOUGH ALREADY!!!!



At what point do you...or can you...just draw the line and say...I CANT DO IT ANYMORE! AND I DONT CARE! I don't care if he's got me wrapped around his finger, I don't care if I'm thinking with my heart instead of my brain. Who loves people with their brain...there are no songs that say they broke my brain, or i gave her the key to my brain...so leave my brain out of this!!!! I use that for math and memories ok!!! Besides, It hasn't killed me yet so whatever. Yeah it sets me up for a broken heart, but I can't be like them. I can't play these mind games anymore. Intentionally hurting people because they did it first. If it's gonna work, it's gonna work. The Big Guy upstairs knows whats gonna happen and that's it. Not my friends who are telling me "He's just messing with you. Get out now." It doesn't matter how many times I text him in a day, or how i respond to him. This shit I'm trying to pull is not me. I can't keep up with it. So I'm just gonna go with the flow and be myself. Do things the way I do them. And if I get hurt...so be it. It wont be the first, or last time. I'll live my life doing things and getting hurt rather than just sitting around and waiting for nothing to happen. Life is so fuckin short its unbelievable sometimes. Why waste it trying to mess with people when you can be making memories and learning things on the way.


Thats all.