Sunday, July 16th, 2006 4am

I don't think i will ever get this nightmare out of my daydreams. What's the gimmick of telling someone one thing and not even believing it yourself...This will never make sense even in the simplest words. Why do I let this lie eat away at the heart I could once control...It's like tripping over and over again onto sharp edges. I was once stronger than this. I've lost the control to contain what this world so evilly extricates. My walls came down way too early this time. Maybe that's why I lost so quickly...i drew my soldiers back too early. I pulled them back when there was more fighting to do...................I only have myself and my blind judgement to blame.